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I am: The Djembe Warrior Drummer Princess, The Belly Shaking Goddess, The Seeker, The Mystic, and The Writer in Quiescence.

Pledge:

I vow to write in this blog at least ONCE a week about my journey as a writer. I promise that I shall conquer my fear of the Written Word and Blank Page/Screen. I will overcome the Writer's Block and will publish numerous times. I will grow as a writer and as a human being undeterred by the daily hardship and nuisance. (Yeah right....)

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Monday, January 31, 2011

Beware of Descriptive Algae

The simple things are also the most extraordinary, but only the wise can see them. (Paulo Coelho on Facebook)


Rereading my old writing from last year, I'm struck by the wordiness and senseless use of metaphor and simile. 

 

It's just too much.

 

It seems that as I discovered for myself the joys of using intricate words in writing, I just plunged in.  Deep.  Buried in sludge, I couldn't discern the true meaning in all that descriptive algae.  

 

In retrospect, it was a wise decision to stop writing for a while and try to get myself out of this swamp. 

 

No wonder people criticized my writing.

 

Simplicity is deceptively simple.   Now I have all the time in the world to master it.

Another bad poem (so why the heck am I sharing it?)


I carry many places inside my soul
But at the same time I feel empty
Secluded in my 3 bdrms 2 baths brick ranch

Lost in the middle of Americana
Behind white picket fences
Among generic faces

Always dreaming of
Scarlet sunset walks
Along cypress alleys

Ancient stucco walls
Aligning narrow streets
Housing echoes of time

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

A Really Bad Poem

They come to you
the bad poems
and assault your senses
with regurgitated
cliches

They whisper into your ear
to write them down
to breathe life into their
broken promises of greatness

And you obey

And then after sobering up
in the light of a sensible morning
you look in disgust on
what has written itself
on the shreds of your old existence

Welcome to insanity, my boy
You are an unpaid bad poet

Monday, January 17, 2011

A Fairytale




There was God of Creativity, who lived up in the sky of wonder, above the clouds of doubt and confusion.

He was a kind God and wanted everyone to be happy and do whatever made them happy.  To achieve that he gave all the people natural abilities and talents to enjoy.  When people utilized their talents, they felt exquisite pleasure and could even catch a glimpse of  God of Creativity himself, who was remarkably glorious.

However, some people failed to use their natural abilities because life around them was tough.  They toiled day and night to earn their daily bread  and were never  happy, so they became envious of those who did as God told them.

As the life on Earth became harder, more and more people fell away from God of Creativity and stopped using their natural talents.  More and more people grew dissatisfied and angry. Jealous of the others, they made fun of them.

"Look at you, painting your stupid pictures! What are you going to eat tomorrow, your oil paint?" they taunted the starving but happy artists.

Art has become a useless trifle and didn't pay a penny.  Being an artist became a joke. Artists could only be poor. Nobody cared about God of Creativity anymore.  People became more desperate and depressed.  The world was turning gray.  The few artists who still worshiped  God were considered madmen.

God of Creativity finally got fed up.

He said, "Stupid people, I gave you life and I gave you happiness.  You threw it away and now suffer!"

He got tired and decided to leave the Earth, taking the few worshipers left with him.  Where they are now, nobody knows, but the world is surely full of suffering.

Wonders of TOEFL

The following was taken from the wrong answer choices of TOEFL test (Test of English as a Foreign Language).  Now somebody please tell me what is REALLY wrong with the wording of these wonderful sentences. They sound like they belong in a Jane Austen novel. Why doesn't everyone start talking like that now? LOL

1.  Alfred Adams has not before lived without the company of his friends.

2.  The committee has met and it has formulated themselves some opinions.

3.  Having been served lunch, a discussion of the problem was made by the members of the committee.

4.  The chairman requested that with more carefulness the problem should be studied.

5.  She wanted to serve some coffee to her guests; however, she was lacking in the amount of sugar.

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

The Futility of Goals

Yes, I've been silent for too long.  And I know that nobody reads my blog. I am not a real blogger anyway, I don't get excited sharing my pearls of wisdom with the Internet readers, or crazed about other people's blogs.  I guess it's just not for me.  But I don't want to be completely out of the picture yet either.  So after four months of being locked away in the deep dungeon of the job torture, and not being able to be with myself, I am once again trying to reconnect with the soul inside of me.   I am once again surrounded by the sacred silence, listening to the whispers of a voice withing me. The voice of what, I don't know.  God, Holy Spirit, inner wisdom, my heart, a Messenger, the infinite creative well... ? But I can hear it once again, guiding me through constant battle of self-hatred that I wage with myself.  And this is what the voice made me write:

Don't focus on the end result.  Don't focus on the goal.  Just enjoy each step without thinking of the final outcome and you will grow day by day into what the outcome is supposed to be.

There's too much emphasis in the modern Western culture on the goal, but the process is usually neglected.  Making the process work for the sake of the process is the ultimate challenge.

Write, dance, exercise for the sheer enjoyment of the feeling in your body.  The improvement will happen on it's own as a byproduct.  The final result?  You don't even want the result to BE FINAL! It's a constant lifelong growth and continuation, necessary for your own self, not for the others, not for the public, your friend, your mother, your husband, or your boss.  YOU are the only person that is doing the process, for whom the process is beneficial.

Who gives a damn about the goal now?